It was a very fucked up thing to say but she made me feel so small, if Im honest I wanted to knock her out (but Id never hit a girl).

Im gonna work on getting my anger in check, think I'll start boxing or muay thai once my exams are done. I always feel so much better (almost lighter in a weird sense) after getting some aggresion out.

Thanks everyone for the replies, hopefully something like that doesnt happen again but if it does I'll handle it differently (fingers crossed lol).

On a positive note I've decided to start Cognetive Behavioral Theropy to sort out my depression/anxiety/paranoia issues. Might see about getting some anti d's aswell, citalopram seems the best for aniety issues.